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This is my Story

An Ongoing Journey of Overcoming Adversities of Life

I can't remember how many times I've shared my testimony with someone in the hopes of encouraging them, only to be told, "You should write a book!" However, that's not yet an area I've got the courage to venture into, so I'll share my journey here as I go along... Please note that I don't share my story to dishonour, blame, or shame those who have wounded me in any way but merely to expose how my own sinful responses towards what happened caused me to remain stuck in the trauma of the events in the hope that my testimony will bring hope to those who are struggling with the same issues. It's inevitable that offence will come in life, but whether we respond to it in a godly or ungodly way is entirely our choice. What happened to us as children was not our fault, but what we do now, what we think, how we dress, where we go, who we go with, and what we touch, who we touch & who touches us is our full responsibility!​ God has given us a rule book, the Bible, to tell us how to win at life. Jesus came to heal the broken-hearted & bind up their wounds. He came to set the captives free. Healing & restoration also come by confessing to one another James 5:16. We are wounded in relationships, but we also heal in relationships. Having confessed, we need to receive forgiveness and let it clean. 'But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ, His Son, cleanses us from all sin.' I John 1:7 Although the Blood cleanses us, it is not the task of the Blood alone to heal but the fellowship with one another that brings healing & restoration. We need to be restored to the fellowship of our fellow citizens. Only their acceptance & embrace can heal years of suffering & ostracism. That is, after all, how we experience God's love. Knowledge will never override experience. You can tell me you love me until you're blue in the face, but because of my lifetime experiences of abandonment & rejection, I will never believe you unless I experience it through your actions. I share my story so that others may find hope in knowing that if God did this for me, He will do it again for them, too.​ This is how we OVERCOME: And they overcame and conquered him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, for they did not love their life and renounce their faith even when faced with death. Revelation 12:11

Forgiven to Forgive

A freedom that flows only from the Cross
“Forgive as quickly and as often as you would expect Christ to forgive you.”These words stir something deep in me, because forgiveness is not always easy. Yet, when I pause and remember how quickly Christ forgives me — without hesitation, without conditions — my heart softens. Unforgiveness is like holding shards of broken pottery close to our chest, hoping they will somehow harm the other person, when in truth, they only cut deeper into us. Forgiveness, then, is not excusing wrongs or forgetting pain. It is releasing the weight that binds us, allowing God’s golden grace to flow into the cracks. 📖 "Then Peter came to Him and said, 'Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?' Jesus said to him, 'I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.'" — Matthew 18:21-22 (NKJV) Forgiveness is never easy. The sting of betrayal, the heaviness of offence, the quiet ache of repeated hurt — all of these weigh on the heart. Yet Jesus showed us the way of freedom while He was still hanging on the cross, whispering, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they do.” That moment wasn’t just history; it is the living example that grace flows stronger than bitterness. Forgiving quickly and often is not about excusing wrongs or pretending pain doesn’t matter. It is about laying down the chains that bind us. Offence locks us in prisons of resentment. Forgiveness, however, sets us free. Forgiveness is freedom. It heals the offense lodged in our hearts, lifts the heaviness from our shoulders, and makes space for peace to breathe again. It is love in action — a reflection of Christ’s mercy alive within us. Sometimes, it isn’t just one act of forgiveness, but a repeated surrender — seventy times seven. The same person, the same wound, the same choice to release. In our strength, this feels impossible. Yet Christ, who forgave us before we ever repented, gives us the ability. His love fills the cracks where bitterness once tried to take root. Every time we forgive, we echo the Cross. We declare: “Christ in me is stronger than the offence against me.” 🕊️ Today, I choose to forgive. Not because it’s deserved, but because I have been forgiven much more. 💡Reflection: Who comes to mind when you think of forgiveness that still feels unfinished? 🤔 How might holding onto offence be keeping you bound? 🤔 What would it look like to forgive again — even if it’s the same wound, the same person? 🤔 ✨ You are not defined by the offence done to you, but by the grace that flows through you. Forgiveness is the doorway to freedom — and Christ holds it open for you. 🎨Creative Prompt: Paint or journal the image of a broken chain mended with golden seams. Let this be a symbol of forgiveness turning wounds into testimonies. 🙌Prayer: Lord Jesus, thank You for forgiving me fully, even when I fall short again and again. Teach me to forgive quickly and often, not in my own strength but in Yours. Break the chains of offence in my life and replace them with Your peace. May my heart reflect Your mercy as I walk in freedom. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

23 September 2025 at 6:10:00 pm

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Your Quiet Influence Matters

A reflection on unseen impact and faithful obedience
God is saying to you today: “You are impacting more lives than you realise. Someone is watching you. Someone will be saved because of you. Someone will keep pushing forward because of your faith. Someone will learn to trust Me because of your example. One day, when you stand before Me in Heaven, you will see the countless lives you've touched, and it will amaze you! Keep walking in faith, keep shining your light, because I am using you in ways beyond what you can see.” 📖 "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." — Matthew 5:16 (NKJV) There are days when I wonder whether the small, faithful acts really make a difference. The prayers whispered in private. The kindness is extended when no one is watching. The art created from tears and worship, sent quietly into the world like a message in a bottle. Yet today, I sense the Lord reminding me that even the smallest light can pierce deep darkness. Today, I’m grateful that the Lord whispers reassurance that what I’m sowing in secret is bearing fruit far beyond what my eyes can trace. His words speak of hidden ripples: someone will find salvation because I shared hope; another will persevere because they’ve watched my steadfast faith; and still another will dare to trust God because of the gentle way I’ve lived His truth. He reminds me that even when the work feels unseen or unnoticed, Heaven is keeping count. Each act of love, each word of encouragement, each prayer sown in faith becomes a seed in His garden of grace. One day, when I stand before Jesus, I believe He’ll show me a tapestry of lives touched through the ordinary threads of obedience. The smiles, the art, the prayers, the faith in waiting — all woven together into something eternal and beautiful. Until then, I will keep walking in faith, shining His light, and trusting that He is using my life in ways beyond what I can see. 💡Reflection: Where have I seen God use my quiet faith to encourage or inspire others?🤔 What “small things” might I be underestimating that God could be using greatly?🤔 How can I stay faithful and joyful in serving unseen?🤔 🙌🏻Prayer Lord Jesus, thank You for reminding me that no act of love is ever wasted in Your kingdom. Help me to trust that You are working through every seed sown in faith, even those that fall in hidden soil. Teach me to shine Your light without striving for recognition, knowing that Your glory is the true reward. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

23 September 2025 at 12:00:00 am

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Stand Firm for Truth

Courage to Speak Out When Silence Feels Safer
📖 "Open your mouth, judge righteously, and plead the cause of the poor and needy." — Proverbs 31:9 (NKJV) There will be moments when you see unfairness unfold and every fibre of you wants to speak, yet fear whispers reasons to stay quiet. Perhaps the wrongdoer is a friend, a leader you respect, or someone with influence. Still, God calls us to rise above fear. His Word reminds us that real courage is not about picking fights; it is about standing firm for what is right even when it is uncomfortable or costly. Christ Himself is our example. He confronted injustice, defended the vulnerable, and never compromised truth for popularity. When we follow Him, we carry His heart for justice and mercy. We do not need to shout to make a difference; often a calm, steady word can be stronger than a storm of anger. 📖 "For if you remain completely silent at this time, relief and deliverance will arise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish. Yet who knows whether you have come to the kingdom for such a time as this?” — Esther 4:14 (NKJV) 💡Reflection: Where might God be inviting you to speak truth with love today — at home, in your workplace, or within your community?🤔 🙌🏻Prayer: Lord Jesus, strengthen my heart to stand firm for truth and righteousness. Fill me with Your wisdom to speak with grace and courage, and help me defend those who cannot defend themselves. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

22 September 2025 at 4:30:00 am

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Wake-up Song of Gratitude

A melody of joy rising with the dawn
🎼 Dankie Jesus vir 'n wysie en 'n woord (Thank You Jesus for a tune and a word) Dankie Jesus want ek leef my volle droom Thank You Jesus because I live my full dream) Dankie Jesus vir die vreugde wat U bring ( Thank You Jesus for the joy that You bring)🎵🎶 This little song of praise carries the fragrance of a childlike heart — light, simple, and full of joy. Sometimes our deepest worship is found not in grand declarations but in whispered tunes of gratitude. Like the sparrows that greet the morning with song, our voices can rise to declare the goodness of God before we even know what the day will hold. 📖 "This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it." — Psalm 118:24 (NKJV) Every breath, every note, every smile is a reminder that Jesus has filled our lives with His love. Even in the middle of trials, He gives us songs in the night (Job 35:10). Waking up with praise shifts our eyes from the weight of yesterday to the promise of today. May this little chorus become like a gentle alarm for the soul — waking us not just from sleep, but into awareness of His presence. For truly, to live our full dream is to live in Him, and to delight in the joy only He can bring. 🙏 Prayer: Thank You, Jesus, for the gift of a new day and the melody You place in my heart. Teach me to wake with gratitude, to carry Your joy, and to live fully in the dream You have planted in me. May my life become a song of praise that draws others to Your love. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

21 September 2025 at 10:59:00 am

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Refined Under Pressure

A meditation on hidden strength and authentic faith
There is something about pressure that tells the truth. Diamonds are forged in the deep, where heat and weight transform common carbon into something of rare beauty. Yet not every glittering stone is a diamond. An imitation may look perfect until it is tested. When life presses down, it can feel like we’re being crushed. Yet in God’s hands, pressure is not punishment, it is transformation. Just as carbon is refined into a diamond under immense weight, so too our faith is revealed in the fire of adversity. This picture holds a spiritual lesson. 📖 “Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ’s sufferings.” — 1 Peter 4:12-13 (NKJV). Our Father is not cruel. He does not crush to destroy. He allows the squeeze so that our lives reveal what is genuine, grace that endures, faith that does not fracture. Tests of adversity separate surface sparkle from the enduring brilliance of a surrendered heart. If you feel the weight today, remember that hidden strength is rising within you. What is of Christ will not shatter. Instead, pressure will polish it until His reflection shines more clearly. Perhaps you’ve been in a season where the weight feels heavy and the pressure unrelenting. Take heart. What is of Christ will not shatter. Hidden strength is rising within you. 💡Reflection: • Where have recent trials revealed unexpected resilience or exposed areas that still need His refining touch? 🤔 • Write a prayer of trust, inviting Jesus to keep shaping your character into lasting beauty. 🙌Prayer: Lord Jesus, thank You that nothing is wasted in Your hands. When life presses hard, steady my heart. Purify my motives, strengthen my faith, and let Your light shine through every crack until Your likeness is all that remains. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

19 September 2025 at 11:44:00 am

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God’s Rainbow of Promise

A gentle reminder of His covenant love on an ordinary Friday morning
This morning, on the way to The Crate, I was greeted by a quiet spectacle: a rainbow arched like a painted bow across the pale sky. The pavement was still damp from the night’s showers, and a hint of blue broke through the cloud, yet the colours shone as if placed there just for me. It felt like the Lord’s own signature — a whispered assurance of His unchanging promises. The rainbow has always been His covenant sign, first given to Noah after the flood, declaring that mercy triumphs over judgement. 📖 "I set My rainbow in the cloud, and it shall be for the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth." — Genesis 9:13 (NKJV) May we carry this same certainty into our day. Whatever storms have gathered, His Word still stands. His mercy is fresh, His faithfulness unbroken. Today, may every glimmer of colour in the ordinary remind us of the God who keeps His promises, leading us from grey skies into hope-filled blue. Thank You for the rainbow this morning — a radiant reminder of Your faithfulness that never fails. Just as the colours stretch across the sky, so does Your mercy cover every part of my life. Thank You for new beginnings after the storms, for hope that rises even on grey days, and for promises that are steadfast and true. Teach me to pause and recognise these glimpses of Your goodness in the ordinary. May my heart be filled with gratitude and trust, knowing that You keep every word You have spoken. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

18 September 2025 at 7:48:00 pm

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Seeing Differently

A reflection on how what some call weakness, others see as a gift
There will always be voices that label us as too much or not enough. Too quiet, too sensitive, too weird, too confident. Yet the truth is that God did not design us by mistake. Every detail was lovingly formed in His heart before it was knit into being. For every person who thinks you are too quiet, there is one who sees in you a patient, safe, listening ear. For every person who calls you too sensitive, another honours your ability to feel deeply and love fully. Where some may call you too confident, others find courage and inspiration in your self-respect. The very qualities others criticise may be the balm another soul has been praying for. This is why anchoring our identity in Christ is so vital. When our worth rests in shifting human opinions, we are pulled back and forth like a boat in restless waters. Yet when our worth rests in Him, we stand steady. 📖 "For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them." — Ephesians 2:10 (NKJV) I am reminded again of my core values — faith, love, compassion, creativity, courage, and integrity. These were not accidental traits but intentional gifts, entrusted to me for a purpose. What someone else calls too much may in fact be just right in the Father’s hands. 🎨Creative Prompt: Paint or sketch an image of a potter shaping clay. Around the clay vessel, write words others have spoken over you that felt like too much or not enough. Then, on the vessel itself, write the words God speaks: Beloved. Chosen. Beautifully Made. 🙌Prayer: Father, thank You that I am Your workmanship. Help me to see myself through Your eyes and not through the shifting lens of others. Teach me to rest in the truth that my weaknesses and strengths alike are redeemed in You. Shape me as the Potter shapes the clay, and let my life reflect Your design. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. You are not defined by another’s labels. You are defined by the One who formed you. Hold fast to His truth and walk boldly in the beauty of who He made you to be.

18 September 2025 at 9:46:00 am

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The Strong Tower

A refuge of safety and song
There are melodies that rise from Scripture and echo deep within our souls. Today it’s this one: 🎼 “The Name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run into it and are safe.” 🎵🎶 How beautiful that His very Name is our protection. Not a distant shelter, but an ever-present tower where safety is not just imagined, it is guaranteed. When storms howl, when accusations sting, when fears creep in like shadows, we are invited to run—not walk—into His refuge. It reminds me that safety isn’t found in control, in people’s approval, or in securing outcomes. True safety rests in the unshakeable, eternal, holy Name of Jesus. A tower higher than my doubts. Stronger than my fears. Wider than my wounds. 📖 “The name of the Lord is a strong tower; The righteous run to it and are safe.” — Proverbs 18:10 (NKJV) 💡Reflection: Where do you run when you feel unsafe or overwhelmed? How might you turn your heart toward His strong tower today? 🙌🏻Prayer: Lord Jesus, thank You that Your Name is a refuge for my weary soul. Teach me to run swiftly to You, not to distractions or self-sufficiency. Be my strong tower, my hiding place, and my peace. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. You are safe, beloved one. Always. Rest in His Name today. 💖

18 September 2025 at 12:54:00 am

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Extend Your Wings

A prophetic blessing of freedom and childlike delight
As I listened to the words spoken over me, I felt the Father’s love wrapping gently around my soul. It was as if the Holy Spirit Himself brushed back the heaviness that has long tried to clip my wings. There was a tender invitation — to stretch them wide again, to dance without fear, to love without hesitation. 📖 "But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint." — Isaiah 40:31 (NKJV) The picture of wings unfolded before me — not fragile, broken feathers, but eagle’s wings, strong and unafraid of the heights. New Zealand once carried the largest eagle in the world, the Haast Eagle, and I believe the Lord was reminding me of the unique strength He has placed within me. Where the enemy tried to silence, limit, or shame, God is renewing courage, creativity, and joy. He delights in me as His little girl twirling before her Daddy. Not judged, not compared, but cherished. There is such freedom in remembering that my worship, whether in dance, paint, or words, is a gift He treasures. The sideways glances and critical comments of others no longer hold weight here. His love is louder. Today, I choose to extend my wings again — to fly in His freedom, to dance in His joy, to rest in His delight. I choose to believe that where the enemy clipped, the Lord has healed, and where there was heaviness, He brings playfulness. 🙌Prayer: Father, thank You for calling me Your beloved daughter. Thank You for delighting in me as I dance, create, and worship. Heal the clipped places of my wings, and teach me to rise again in Your strength. May my life be a prophetic picture of freedom and joy, pointing others to Your love. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

16 September 2025 at 11:08:00 am

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Shyness: A False Identity Unveiled

A gentle revelation of fear exchanged for God’s design
I once believed I was simply “the shy and introverted one.” Teachers said it. Family repeated it. Eventually, I wore it like a name tag stitched to my soul. What I didn’t realise then was how quickly labels, especially spoken over us in childhood, can take root and shape how we see ourselves. Shyness became a cage, a false identity I thought was mine. Yet as I grew in Christ, I heard a question whispered in prayer: “Is this truly who I created you to be?” The Holy Spirit began unravelling the tangled threads, showing me that shyness was not my original design but fear masquerading as personality. 📖 "For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind." — 2 Timothy 1:7 (NKJV) Fear painted its brushstrokes across my life, trying to obscure the masterpiece God had formed in my mother’s womb. But when revelation came, I saw it clearly — shyness is not a part of God’s handiwork. It was never written into the blueprint of my being. It was a lie I had agreed with, giving it permission to linger. God calls His children to boldness. 📖 "The righteous are bold as a lion." — Proverbs 28:1 (NKJV). We cannot be both bold and shy; one flows from truth, the other from fear. As His beloved, we are called to walk with lion-hearted courage, not hidden timidity. Here I began to see another layer — the difference between how God created me and what the enemy tried to twist. Introversion, for example, is not a flaw or a false identity. It is a temperament — a gentle strength woven by God Himself. Some are created to be reflective, to find energy in solitude, to notice what others might miss. Even Jesus often withdrew to quiet places to pray (Luke 5:16). This is a holy rhythm, not a weakness. Social anxiety, however, is different. It is a wound — a fear-based distortion, often birthed from rejection or trauma. It whispers, “Hide, or you’ll get hurt,” while God whispers, “Come into the light, you are safe with Me.” Shyness and anxiety are the enemy’s brushstrokes, trying to cover what God has made. The truth is that God restores without erasing our God-given design. He does not take away the contemplative nature of an introvert; instead, He frees it from the chains of fear so that gentleness, depth, and creativity can shine unhindered. His boldness doesn’t always look loud. Sometimes it is the quiet, steady courage to stand, to speak when needed, to love without fear. 📖 "For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, 'Abba, Father.'" — Romans 8:15 (NKJV) Through forgiveness, repentance, and renouncing lies, God began restoring me to my true identity: bold, beloved, and free. No longer hidden behind timidity, I could step forward as the woman He intended. His masterpiece — not faint or overshadowed — but radiant with His light. Perhaps you too have worn a label that was never meant for you. Today, may the Holy Spirit lift that false name, revealing the truth of who you are: wonderfully made, chosen, fearless in His love. 💡 Reflection: What labels were spoken over you in childhood that you may have worn as truth?🤔 Do you see ways where social anxiety has masked itself as part of your personality?🤔 How might God be inviting you to embrace your true temperament (introversion or extroversion) without fear?🤔 What does lion-hearted boldness look like in your life — not loudness, but steady courage in Christ?🤔 🙏 Prayer: Abba Father, thank You for calling me Your beloved. Thank You that You did not give me a spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind. I confess and renounce every false label I have carried — especially the lie of shyness and the weight of social anxiety. Lift these burdens, Lord, and show me the truth of my original design. Teach me to embrace the way You created me, whether quiet or expressive, as a gift. Fill me with the boldness of a lion, anchored in Your love and freedom. Let my life shine with courage and compassion, unafraid to step into the light of who I truly am in You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

16 September 2025 at 9:09:00 am

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Identity — The Original Masterpiece

A gentle unpeeling: discovering the canvas God painted before the world began.
There are times when the river of memory carries debris from storms long gone. A comment, a rejection, a whispered judgement; each one lodges like a dark brushstroke across the face of the masterpiece God painted when He formed you in your mother’s womb. Holy Spirit moves with gentleness and wisdom, revealing what has been overlaid so that the original colours may be seen again. 📖 "I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me." — John 14:6 (NKJV) An identity crisis began in Eden and spread into every generation, creating a fog that convinces us the cover-up is actually the original painting. Labels given in childhood — "shy," "too much," "insecure" — slowly become lenses. A sibling’s louder laugh, a teacher’s careless word, the family stories passed down; each becomes another coat of paint the enemy uses to hide the image of God within us. Holy Spirit does not come to shame us. He comes to reveal, to heal, to gently lift those layers. For decades I believed I was an introvert. I carried the weight of social anxiety and labelled myself as painfully shy. It wasn’t until I heard the statement, “If you’re painfully shy it would behoove you to ask Holy Spirit if that was an inner healing issue,” that I dared to bring it before Him. He revealed that my shyness was not who I truly was — it was fruit from unresolved trauma, my social anxiety, the outworking of being a wounded burden bearer. As I’ve walked with Him in healing, the suppressed version of me has begun to give way to my true design. Recently, a few people even called me an extrovert. When I told Clive, he laughed and said, “No way!” because he’s only ever known the suppresed version of me. The more healing comes, the more I remember who I really am, and the more I step into the masterpiece the Father painted from the beginning. I also recognised how my strengths and values had been twisted, leaving me trapped in painful double-binds — wanting to live out love, creativity, compassion and courage, yet feeling paralysed by fear, guilt, and the lies of the enemy. Through recognition, forgiveness and repentance, the Father has been restoring me to my original design. What once held me hostage has become the very place where His freedom now flows. Healing is not just removing pain; it is restoring His intention. As you sit with this truth, invite Holy Spirit to bring revelation. Ask Him where a lens has been formed, and allow His light to expose what is not yours. He will not yank the bandage; He heals with tenderness, not force. Mercy triumphs over judgement and safety invites vulnerability. When the Father is seen as safe, the heart leans in, and the unpeeling happens in love. There are places where generational wounds have taken root. Patterns of anger, fear, perfectionism or shame may feel like a family heirloom, handed down from one heart to another. Jesus bore every curse on the cross. His blood begins the slow, holy work of washing the canvas: revealing the image God intended, restoring purpose and beauty. Practical steps for tender unpeeling: 1. Ask Holy Spirit to show you the first memory where a lie felt true. Name it aloud. 2. Speak truth into that place using Scripture, not as a weapon but as balm. 3. Renounce the lie and declare your truth in Christ. 4. Invite a trusted friend or minister to pray with you and speak life over the hidden masterpiece. 5. Keep a small journal of each layer that peels away so you can see how God restores colour over time. You are not what the enemy painted over you. You are the Father’s original, beloved work — fearfully and wonderfully made, an image-bearer of the living God. Allow His light to rise in the hidden valleys of your heart; watch the debris float away and the river begin to flow again. 🙌A short, soul-tending prayer: Lord Jesus, thank you for the gentleness of the Father and for Holy Spirit who reveals truth. Peel away what is not of You. Wash the canvas of my heart with Your blood and let me see my true self reflected in You. Replace shame with wonder, fear with power, and doubt with the knowledge that I am beloved. Help me to renounce the lies and to walk in the freedom of my original identity. Restore the colours that have been hidden and set my feet to rise in the purpose You have painted for me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. Affirmation: Today I choose to see myself through the Father’s eyes. I am His original masterpiece, called to beauty, courage and faithful love. You are seen, cherished and being made whole.

16 September 2025 at 8:30:00 am

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When Rejection Shapes Our Blueprint

Rewriting our relationships in Christ’s love
Sometimes, the deepest ache isn’t the sting of another’s rejection but the silent scanning of our own hearts — always bracing, always waiting, always fearing we won’t be enough. When we grow up without a sense of true acceptance, our blueprint for belonging is etched in fear. That blueprint whispers lies into our adult lives: “Don’t get too close, or you’ll be hurt.” “If you give more, maybe they’ll stay.” “Better to leave first than be left behind.” “Don’t bother, because relationships don’t last.” I know this ache. I’ve lived it. It can even drive us to sabotage love before love has a chance to bloom. By the time I was 6, I had concluded that relationships won't last after being the "new kid on the block" 5 times.  13 schools and 34 homes by the time I reached 18 just helped solidify this judgment on life and people. Displacement trauma ran so deep that I never put down roots. Yet, beloved, there is hope. The Master Builder is not finished with us. Our relational blueprints can be rewritten by the One who calls us accepted, chosen, and dearly loved. 📖 "Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God!" — 1 John 3:1 (NKJV) The enemy tries to keep us bound to fear, but God calls us into freedom. In Christ, rejection does not define us, nor does abandonment hold us captive. His love builds a new foundation, one rooted not in fear but in belonging. Like clay in the potter’s hands, He reshapes our broken places into vessels of grace. Where fear once over-gave, His Holy Spirit teaches us balance. Where withdrawal once ruled, His Spirit teaches us courage to stay. Where suspicion once clouded love, His Spirit teaches us to trust His presence in others. Where despair once whispered that relationships don’t last, His Spirit reminds us that His love endures forever. 💡Reflection: Where do I notice myself bracing for rejection?🤔 How might I invite the Holy Spirit to rewrite my “relationship blueprint”?🤔 What Scriptures remind me that I am fully accepted and loved in Christ?🤔 How can I begin trusting that some relationships, by God’s grace, are meant to last?🤔 🙌🏻Prayer: Father, I surrender my old blueprints, the ones written in fear and rejection. Rewrite them with Your love. Teach me that I am already accepted in Christ, and help me walk in the freedom of that truth. Heal the parts of me that sabotage love, and replace them with courage, grace, and trust. May my relationships become reflections of Your steadfast love. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

15 September 2025 at 8:00:00 pm

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My Soul Follows Hard After Thee

A song of deep pursuit and holy longing
There’s something about the old songs that rise up unbidden, like treasures hidden deep in the soil of our souls. This morning, my heart hummed an old refrain: 🎶 *“*My soul followeth hard after Thee Early in the morning I will rise up and seek Thee And because Thou hast been my help Under the shadow of Your wings Will I rejoice…” It is the cry of a heart that refuses to be distracted, a spirit determined to cling to the One who gives life. David once penned those very words: 📖 “My soul follows close behind You; Your right hand upholds me.” — Psalm 63:8 (NKJV) That picture of following hard after Him feels like a dance of longing and trust. We don’t pursue Him casually. We run after Him as though our very breath depends on it, because it does. His presence is not an accessory to our lives — it is the essence of life itself. This morning’s whispered melody reminds me that even when I am weary, He holds me steady. My grip may falter, but His right hand never lets go. 🙌Prayer Lord Jesus, keep my heart soft and my feet swift to follow You. When the world distracts me, draw me back with Your steadfast love. Let my pursuit of You be marked by holy longing, not duty, and may my soul cling ever tighter to Your presence. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. 🌸 Always remember, you are seen, cherished, and carried. May your soul rest today in the safety of His upholding hand.

15 September 2025 at 6:15:00 pm

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Legacy of Love

A heart that longs to leave lives transformed and souls drawn to Christ
I do not desire to leave behind monuments of my own making, nor a name etched in the halls of fame. What I long for most is a legacy of hearts loved back to life and lives forever transformed by Christ. If, when all is said and done, others can say they saw His reflection in me, then my life will have been well spent.   This desire flows from the very core of who I am and what I value most. Faith is my foundation, love is my compass, and service is my offering. Creativity becomes the vessel through which hope and healing are painted back onto broken souls. Integrity and generosity shape the way I walk, courage anchors me when fear threatens, and compassion reminds me that every heart matters. Success, as the world measures it, holds little meaning to me. True achievement is when someone who was hurting finds wholeness in Christ because love reached them through me. 📖 "Those who are wise shall shine like the brightness of the firmament, and those who turn many to righteousness like the stars forever and ever." — Daniel 12:3 (NKJV) 💡Prayer: Lord Jesus, may the reflection of Your love be so evident in me that others are drawn to You, not to me. Let my legacy be one of lives healed, hearts restored, and souls saved. Teach me to love with Your compassion, to serve with Your humility, and to create with Your Spirit’s inspiration. May every act, no matter how small, ripple into eternity for Your glory. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

13 September 2025 at 10:30:00 am

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Still the Storm Within

When melodies remind the soul that Jesus calms our inner seas
I woke this morning with a nauseating headache and the faint ache of clenched teeth. My body seems to be carrying what my heart is wrestling through. Two tablets and a little more rest lifted the heaviness, yet even in the fog of weariness, the Lord placed a melody on my heart. I cannot even remember the old Afrikaans song that came first, only that it was about Jesus. But as I stood under the shower, another fragment rose like a prayer whispered back to me: 🎵 “Want U stil die lewensstorms weereens Heer. Maak 'n molshoop van die berg in my gemoed.” Such tenderness in that reminder — that He stills the storms of life and turns mountains into molehills within our troubled minds. Perhaps it is no coincidence. Pastor David’s recent meeting with the elders has been weighing on me, stirring an anxious undercurrent I cannot always name. I have noticed myself clenching my teeth, as though bracing against impact. He has now sent through a message with his second warning from the elders and his subsequent response. I have not yet read it, let alone replied. My heart hesitates. Yet even here, God meets me. Scripture says: 📖 “Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” — John 14:27 (NKJV) So before I step into words, decisions, or responses, I need to sit in His peace. To let Him still the storm inside, that I may not react out of fear, but respond in His wisdom and grace. 🕊 A prayer rises with the melody: “Heavenly Father, I surrender the storms within me to You. Calm the mountain of worry into a molehill of peace. Guard my mind, steady my words, and align my response with Your truth. Thank You that I am safe in Your hands, no matter the turmoil around me. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.” Affirmation for today: Even when anxiety clenches its grip, Jesus is the One who stills my storms and brings peace to my inner seas.

13 September 2025 at 9:53:00 am

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ALL Life is Sacred

Rejecting violence and the celebration of harm
Today my heart feels heavy. I'm appalled at the laughing emojis and celebration at someone’s passing and sickened by the cruelty I’ve seen spilling across comment sections online. Words — typed by fingertips running rampant — mock and cheer at the loss of a 31-year-old man with a family. A murder is being applauded, as though life itself were disposable. The darkness of such responses chills me: “He had it coming,” “Think like me or die,” “Stay silent or die.” This is the language of hell’s fury, not of heaven’s light. This portrays a lack of compassion that wounds more than just words. Freedom of belief means nothing if it is met with bullets instead of conversation. A man has lost his life. Loved ones have lost their father, their husband. This is beyond politics — it is about human dignity. Sometimes we just have to agree to disagree. There is something seriously wrong in society when a person is not allowed to freely hold and even teach a view different from another’s without fear of harm. Violence is never the answer. Murder is never justice. 📖 "You shall not murder." — Exodus 20:13 (NKJV) I didn’t follow Charlie Kirk and do not care what his political or religious views are or were. What was done is insanity and totally unacceptable. Children lost their father. A man was murdered because he held beliefs his killer could not accept. To those who celebrate death the death or public execution of anyone who used words, not violence, you are part of the problem. Your voice contributes to the rage, the hatred, the pain. Evil shows itself most brazenly when it whispers death and destruction in the disguise of power. Yet, even in the face of such wickedness, I cling to a holy peace. Charlie was a believer. At the moment he crossed from this world into eternity, he was welcomed with the words we long to hear: 📖 "Well done, good and faithful servant." — Matthew 25:21 (NKJV) This assurance does not erase the sorrow, but it strengthens the resolve. Life is sacred. No matter the chorus of voices that grow careless with human dignity, the truth remains: every life bears God’s imprint, every breath is known and counted by Him. Now, the torch Charlie carried is not extinguished—it has been passed to us. His boldness in faith must stir a holy fire within our bones. To refuse silence. To speak truth in love. To rise in courage, even when the world mocks. May we not shrink back in fear but step forward in holy defiance against evil. May our lives, too, echo heaven’s commendation when the race is finished: “Well done.” Let’s refuse to walk that path. Let’s mourn life lost. Pray for the grieving. May we instead choose to pray for peace, comfort the grieving, and speak words of life when others speak rage. 🙌Closing Prayer: Heavenly Father, we lift before You every grieving heart touched by violence. Restore compassion where callousness has taken root. Remind us of the value of every soul, created in Your image. May our words bring peace, our actions reflect Your love, and our witness point always to the sanctity of life. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

11 September 2025 at 11:47:00 pm

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Faith, Family & Creativity

A threefold cord that carries me when life feels heavy
When life grows heavy and shadows press close, it is one thing — braided strong like a threefold cord — that keeps me standing: Faith, Family, and Creativity. Faith roots me deep in God’s unshakable love, the anchor that steadies me when storms howl. Family surrounds me with belonging and warmth, reminding me that love is stronger than any burden. Creativity gives me wings, a way to pour beauty into brokenness, to turn pain into colour and story. Together, these three are not separate strands but one lifeline, woven by God’s hand. They are the heartbeat that carries me through the weight of the world and lifts me into hope again. 📖 "Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken." — Ecclesiastes 4:12 (NKJV) 🙌Prayer: Father, thank You for weaving my life together with the threads of faith, family, and creativity. Help me never to take these gifts for granted. May I lean on You, cherish my loved ones, and keep creating beauty even in hard seasons. Strengthen this cord You’ve woven so that it never unravels, but always points me back to You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

11 September 2025 at 10:57:00 am

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TRUST: The Fragile Bridge of Leadership

Why every relationship stands or falls on this invisible foundation
Trust is the invisible bridge that every relationship walks across. Without it, the journey collapses before it even begins. In leadership, trust is not optional; it is everything. People may admire your vision or applaud your skills, but they will not truly follow unless they trust your heart. Trust is painstaking to build. It grows slowly, plank by plank, through honesty, integrity, and consistency. Yet it takes only a careless word or a broken promise to shatter it in seconds. Once fractured, it can be repaired, but the scars often remain. This is why Scripture urges us to live lives above reproach, to let our yes be yes and our no be no, so that our words carry the weight of truth. 📖 "He who walks with integrity walks securely, but he who perverts his ways will become known." — Proverbs 10:9 (NKJV) Leadership is not about perfection. It is about humility, courage, and the willingness to own our missteps. When we confess, seek forgiveness, and make amends, trust can be restored. In that restoration, followers see not weakness but strength — the kind of strength that reflects Christ. If you lead, lead with a heart anchored in love and integrity. Let your actions echo your words, so those who follow you walk across the bridge of trust without fear it will crumble beneath their feet. 🙌A Closing Prayer: Lord Jesus, thank You that You are perfectly trustworthy. Teach me to lead with honesty, humility, and love. Help me guard the hearts entrusted to my care, that my life may point them to You, the faithful Shepherd of our souls. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

11 September 2025 at 10:40:00 am

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Healing Ripples Through Generations

When our restoration becomes the overflow for our family
Our children don’t need us to silence their emotions. They need us to help them understand them. To show them it’s okay to feel deeply and to teach them what to do with that depth. We validate the storm inside. We hold the line outside. And in doing so, we help them learn what it means to be both human and whole. For much of my life, I did not know how to do this. I had dismally failed in this area, not because I didn’t love my children, but because I was not equipped to even deal with my own emotions. I had neatly boxed them away and spent years surviving in numbness, living in what I now call numbville. Survival felt safer than feeling. Yet God in His mercy did not leave me there. As I pursued my healing, the ripple effect began. What the Lord restored in me spilled over onto my husband and children. Healing is never just for us — it overflows, it spills, it touches the ones closest to us. 📖 “The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit.” — Psalm 34:18 (NKJV) I see now that my failures were not final. God has been rewriting my story, layer by layer, storm by storm, until I could begin to model for my children what wholeness looks like. Not perfection, but authenticity. Not the absence of pain, but the presence of hope. If you too feel like you’ve failed in this area, take heart. Healing is possible, and its fruit will not only restore you but also nurture the hearts of those you love most. 💡 Reflection: • In what ways have you seen healing in your life ripple out to others around you?🤔 • Where do you still long for that overflow?🤔 🙌 Prayer: Father, thank You that my healing does not stop with me, but flows into my family and generations to come. Help me to hold space for my children’s emotions, even as You continue to heal mine. May Your love and truth be the legacy we carry forward. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

10 September 2025 at 11:42:00 am

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Love Calms the Sea

A reflection on how God’s love stills the storms of our hearts
This morning, a line of song drifted through my thoughts: "🎼Some say love, it is a river that calms the roaring sea."🎵🎶 Though the original lyric is different, my heart caught hold of this version, and it became a tender reminder of the way Christ’s love works within us. Life often feels like a roaring sea — waves of grief, fear, or uncertainty crashing against the shores of our souls. Yet, when Jesus speaks, even the most violent storm bows in surrender. 📖 "Then He arose and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, 'Peace, be still!' And the wind ceased and there was a great calm." — Mark 4:39 (NKJV) Love is not only a gentle feeling; in Christ, love is a force that silences storms. His love does not erase the waves, but it steadies the boat, anchors our hope, and carries us to shore. It is both tender and strong, fierce and gentle, like a river that brings life wherever it flows. As I sat with this thought, I heard a whisper of the Holy Spirit: "My love calms what overwhelms you. Rest in Me." How freeing to know that the God who commands seas also commands the chaos inside of us. 🙌Prayer Lord Jesus, thank You for being the One who speaks peace into my storms. Help me to lean on Your love when fear rises, trusting that Your voice still carries authority over every wave. Teach me to rest in You, knowing that no storm is stronger than Your love. In Jesus’ Name, Amen. 🌿 May you feel His calm wash over you today, dear heart. You are not abandoned in the storm — you are held by Love Himself.

9 September 2025 at 8:30:00 pm

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