My first piece of art is going public in an exhibition for 2 weeks amidst the chaos of COVID-19 & the official opening today has been cancelled but is available to view online on Facebook. https://www.facebook.com/MairangiArts/posts/3442030239145083 Some really stunning artwork here... 🤔 This is where I have to resist the temptation to compare mine (#34) & think it may not be not as good as the others with fear of not being good enough having been the biggest stronghold thro

I don't know where my immense fear of painting came from. That voice in my head just kept telling me I can't do it because I'm just not good enough. It became so loud over the years that I've never wanted to try for fear of failure. I joined an art group recently with a lovely Korean lady leading it at a local church & due to her encouragement I finally got myself some paint. This is my first ever watercolour painting since primary school on plain A4 paper (because I wa

Still on the subject of discovering my identity & God-given purpose... This is the Scripture I received at prayer meeting this morning. God knew me before I was even born. He sanctifies & ordains us. He sends us forth to expand His Kingdom & doesn't expect us to be qualified. because He equips us for the task. He gives us the right words to speak & shows us the way. Thank you, Lord that we don't have to depend on our own abilities & qualifications to do that which You have se

Society has made us believe that we're not good enough the way God has created us. Too skinny, too fat, too modest, too whatever. I have recently renounced all those foundational LIES & choose to believe what God's Word says I am.

And with these Identity Statements (created in Photoshop) my friend & I finished off our "Healing the Soul of a Woman" book study by Joyce Meyer Ministries. One of the biggest challenges in my life has been my lack of knowledge of my identity in Christ bringing with it a lack of self-confidence, feelings of inadequacy & fear of rejection. These statements are meant to help me transform my mind when I think of myself in any way other than what God's Word says about me. Go

Praise the Lord!!! I have finally overcome my audition anxiety. This one's taken a while after losing my voice when I was supposed to audition at the end of May & it was gone for about weeks. Obviously God wasn't finished with me yet & I needed to complete the Cleansing Stream to break the strongholds that have been on my life all these years. I will start out with events choir until they manage to get enough people for the Life North Campus. I might even consider joinin

Last year around this time Pastor Steven Furtick's sermons started popping up in my Facebook feed after I hit rock bottom in my life long struggle with depression & anxiety. It some stage I was binge watching sermons because it felt like God was speaking right at me with every sermon. He reached down into my pit of depression & suicidal thoughts & lifted me out. Today I've been depression free for 5 months. I have just completed the Cleansing stream & had generational soul

I’ve hated this woman. I’ve not loved her at full capacity. I’ve fed her lies & told her she wasn’t good enough and have allowed others to tell her she wasn't good enough. I’ve allowed her to be broken. I've allowed others to treat her disrespectfully. I’ve allowed her to run through brick walls & battle for others who won’t even stand for her. I couldn’t stop individuals from abandoning her, yet I’ve seen her get up and stand to be a light to the world & love others despit

And on this high note I'm closing another chapter of my life & bid farewell to all the wonderful ladies at Greater Auckland Chorus who have been my sisterhood for the last 3 years. I don't believe in coincidence but God in His divine wisdom has brought me here to heal, learn, grow & prepare for His purpose to be fulfilled in my life. I had given up on a lifelong dream due to feelings of worthlessness but they have helped me realise & prove to myself that I'm good enough af

Oh boy, what a nightmarish year this was. We've loved & lost. Our family has subsequently shrunk back down to just the 4 of us. We're trusting God for healing & restoration over the next year. Have a blessed Christmas everyone.

Here we stand at the dawning of a new era in our lives. 21 years ago we were blessed with a bundle of joy. That precious bundle now all grown up & spreading his wings. I've planned this special send-off into adulthood for so many years and now that it has arrived, I'm feeling overwhelmed. It was supposed to be the most joyous & spectacular event he could have dreamed of but instead the last years have happened & it feels like I have lost my boy... If there's one thing I've re

When I was at rock bottom God spoke to me through this photo a friend posted on her Facebook page...