There is such a quiet relief that comes when we realise we do not owe everyone an explanation for our choices. The Holy Spirit has been gently unravelling my old patterns of being the “dutiful daughter,” always trying to please, to serve, to explain. Yet peace does not come from endless justifying, but from resting in God’s gaze of love. He sees. He knows. He understands. That is enough.

This season feels like a holy pause — a sacred unravelling of old expectations. For so long, I carried the role of the “dutiful daughter,” saying yes when it cost me, stretching myself to meet the unspoken needs of others, believing that sacrifice equalled worth.

Yet, as I step back from serving at B-School and release the guilt of not becoming a small group leader for schools, I sense the Holy Spirit whispering an invitation: “Daughter, I did not call you to carry duty as your identity. I called you to rest in My love and serve from freedom.”

After 4 consecutive years of serving at all 4 schools every school holiday, it is going to feel strange not to be there. So now I have the next 3 weeks to process all the emotions and come to terms with being allowed to be a human BEing, not a human DOing, so next time I serve, my heart and attitudes may be in the right place.

This pause is not a punishment. It is a gift. The Lord is loosening the ties of striving and guilt, teaching me how to serve not because I must, but because I may — because love compels me, not obligation.

Like a feather carried on the wind, I am learning to let His love be the current that moves me, not the weight of others’ expectations. There is freedom here, a deeper trust that the world will not fall apart if I simply rest in Him.

In this season, I sense the Lord inviting me into stillness rather than performance. I won’t be serving at B-School this month, and that is okay. To pause is not to fail; to rest is not to neglect. Instead, it is to trust that the One who calls me is faithful, and He does not measure me by how much I do, but by how I walk with Him. Serving out of love, not out of obligation, is the fruit He desires.

My heart whispers gratitude for this pause, this healing, this gentle season where explanations are not required. The right people will not demand them; the wrong ones will not believe them anyway. God alone holds my story, and His acceptance frees me to step out of old expectations and into new freedom.

🙌 Prayer

Lord Jesus, thank You for knowing me fully and loving me as I am. Teach me to rest in Your love, to release the weight of pleasing others, and to serve only from the overflow of joy in You. May I learn to walk in freedom, led by the Holy Spirit, with a heart anchored in Your peace.

Father, thank You for inviting me into a season of healing and rest. Teach me to release the heavy mantle of duty and to embrace the light yoke of Your love. May I learn to serve not from striving, but from freedom and delight in You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.