I was born in Germany raised in SA. Having been conceived after an illegitimate brother and an aborted brother as well as being unplanned, I felt mom's guilt, shame & "Oh NO" in the womb resulting in my feeling unwanted & "I shouldn't be here" from my earliest moments. The spirit of death had wrapped around me in the womb & I spent a lifetime struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts & social anxiety because of the many foundational lies that I had come to believ