I had another one of those totally freaked out moments as we were preparing to dance "The Blessing " during the service this morning...
Last year, when I lay down choir, creative team & welcome team at the altar because of VP, I had no idea that God was busy setting up a different stage for me, an upgrade as my friend, Beth termed it... I gave up stage life, no more entertaining in church but then He nudged me to return to my first love. In my early Christian life I was on the dance & drama team in church but haven't danced in over 3 decades. Well, upon His prompting, I joined the dance team in May & oh boy, have I been falling over my feet since then.
Interestingly though due to the trauma of emotional neglect, not having received affirmation, praise & blessings growing up, I had no ability to receive praise & blessings so this song used to rub me up in all the wrong ways when we were singing it in the choir before I received healing in January, April & July. Honestly, I was very tempted in the beginning of dance classes to just give it up because it just seemed like I would never master it. I still haven't, but have at least made huge improvement. Although I am no able to follow in the group I still don't remember it & get really frustrated when practicing on my own.
Thanks to Elijah House Ministries some of my stuckness has been reduced but there are still some areas of weakness where I totally have to rely on the strength of the Holy Spirit in me. "Dancing Queen for God's Kingdom" was part of a prophesy I received after completing D-School in July. Worship team & dance on stage are just 2 of those areas where I'm stepping way out of my comfort zone.
(Hubby's recording)
I still feel ill-equipped for the huge vision I carry but am grateful that God doesn’t call the qualified but qualifies the called & trust that in time confidence will follow obedience in stepping out on uncharted waters.
(The church's recording: last 10 minutes of video)
I really have to tightly hold on to this Scripture when I step out to do what He's called me to...
but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough—always available—regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 AMP