I got triggered into oblivion on Thursday night & have been struggling way more than I'd like to admit this week. For the first time however, I wasn't able to suppress my feelings & found myself in tears during the day as opposed to crying myself to sleep at night. I am aiming to get to the root of this annual November to January trigger season & praying for breakthrough that this will be the last year I will have to wage this war. The enemy has been served his eviction notic

I attended another Elijah House Trauma seminar this weekend. Once again I go to learn & be equipped to help others heal BUT instead God removed a few more layers of neglect, loss, betrayal, displacement, sexual abuse & generational trauma just to prove He was serious when I heard Him say: "Wait, there's more!" after D-School prayer ministry. And so we edge a few more steps forward towards the abundant life He has promised. The bad news is that processing hasn't happened as l

Here's a post I've been sitting on since I bought my first dress, the blue one, for my first worship team event in August... I received this word from Sandra during prayer ministry on 4/6/2020... "Be still & know I am here. INVEST: The Lord wants you to invest in you personally. You're not a waste of time, money & effort. What would that look like? • Take time to discover what fills your creative well • New haircut? • New dress? • Take the time & money you need for qualif

This week we celebrated our 30th wedding anniversary. Please bear with me. I wanted to keep this short, but today's the culmination of a decades-long wrestle with God & myself. When the thought of renewing our vows for our 25th anniversary crossed my mind, I shrugged it off as a totally crazy idea because I was in shambles & suicidal back then. However, the Lord uses all things for good & in His great mercy, had allowed my structures to be overwhelmed so He could set me on m

On Tuesday we had some disruption due to the new air-conditioner being istalled in the lounge & the old one being moved into the studio....

I had another one of those totally freaked out moments as we were preparing to dance "The Blessing " during the service this morning......

It's taken a few weeks to get the last few things sorted but studio is finally completely finished. We're still missing some signage but here's what you'll find when you come visit me in my studio. The door to the left is a storage closet that has been fixed & can now be used & to the far left is our house entrance. When she renovated, the landlady insisted the studio also needed inside access to the house so visitors could comfortably use the bathroom so they broke through t

I spent most of my week at Elijah House B-School serving & listening in to the sessions, so not much painting has been done this week. As...

I guess it's safe to say I have a very happy customer... Peter came up to me after the service last month in which I shared my testimony & announced the start of our Healing heARTs ministry at MBCC with a challenge to do a painting on the Wings of Prayer. He had seen my exhibition in the front of the church & loved what I did with my paintings & wanted his favourite Scripture painted. This is a Scripture I've wanted to create for years but had shied away from for fear of fai

This has been a fairly productive week. Jesse made me a carry box for the paint party easels he had made for me last year & I decided to...

Well, my studio is almost finished. I still need to sort out the walk-in storage cupboard, but thanks to Lai's brilliant thinking, that mess remains hidden behind the doors for now... The exhibition hanging system has also arrived this week & I just need to get a rail to hang it so I can get an exhibition onto the big wall. Who knows, maybe I'll be able to sell some paintings when I have people in the studio for paint parties. Then there's still the blind for the window that

A couple of years ago, when I was at rock bottom God spoke to me through this photo a friend posted on her Facebook page... so I scrapped...

I've spent much of this week just trying to finish off using the leftover paints from last Saturday's Healing heARTs paint party at the...

Now we can host paint parties & exhibitions right here in my studio... I just need to add an exhibition hanging system to the exhibition wall... Let the healing heARTs begin...

I started D-School in July 2022 thinking it would be a breeze because I'd dealt with all the issues on the index, until we got to the lesson on SPIRITUAL REBELLION. I learnt every person is deeply in spiritual rebellion & in need of being reconciled with Him. 3The foolishness of a person ruins his way, And his heart rages against the Lord. Proverbs 19:3 It's not sin to desire relief from painful or difficult circumstances, but this lesson speaks to the way we reject our lives

This weekend Jesse came along to help us do the last few touches to the studio. Now I just need to paint the additions...

I was born in Germany raised in SA. Having been conceived after an illegitimate brother and an aborted brother as well as being unplanned, I felt mom's guilt, shame & "Oh NO" in the womb resulting in my feeling unwanted & "I shouldn't be here" from my earliest moments. The spirit of death had wrapped around me in the womb & I spent a lifetime struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts & social anxiety because of the many foundational lies that I had come to believ

During Elijah House A-School, Sandra had a vision of the Lord wanting to give a mantel of nobility. God had been speaking to me about my...