Last night, 4 years ago I was listening to a sermon by Sarah Jakes Roberts. I can't even say I remember what she preached but during her closing prayer I felt the Lord lift the heaviness off my chest & for the first time in my life, I didn't cry myself to sleep on my birthday. A bruised reed He will not break, And smoking flax He will not quench, Till He sends forth justice to victory; Matthew 12:20 NKJV The enemy still comes knocking... Today I thank the Lord, for carrying m

I attended another Elijah House Trauma seminar this weekend. Once again I go to learn & be equipped to help others heal BUT instead God removed a few more layers of neglect, loss, betrayal, displacement, sexual abuse & generational trauma just to prove He was serious when I heard Him say: "Wait, there's more!" after D-School prayer ministry. And so we edge a few more steps forward towards the abundant life He has promised. The bad news is that processing hasn't happened as l

Here's a post I've been sitting on since I bought my first dress, the blue one, for my first worship team event in August... I received this word from Sandra during prayer ministry on 4/6/2020... "Be still & know I am here. INVEST: The Lord wants you to invest in you personally. You're not a waste of time, money & effort. What would that look like? • Take time to discover what fills your creative well • New haircut? • New dress? • Take the time & money you need for qualif

I didn't get to spend any painting time in my studio last week due to preparations for tomorrow night's anniversary celebration & vow renewals. These pours were done last weekend. Flip cup pour on 10cm natural look coasters Colours used: Atelier A2 Lightfast Titanium White Atelier A2 Lightfast Pthalo Blue Atelier A2 Lightfast Cadmium Red Reeves Copper Metallic Blue Atelier A2 Lightfast Cobalt Blue Metallic Red Atelier A2 Lightfast Ultramarine Blue Flip cup pours on 10cm natu

I started D-School in July 2022 thinking it would be a breeze because I'd dealt with all the issues on the index, until we got to the lesson on SPIRITUAL REBELLION. I learnt every person is deeply in spiritual rebellion & in need of being reconciled with Him. 3The foolishness of a person ruins his way, And his heart rages against the Lord. Proverbs 19:3 It's not sin to desire relief from painful or difficult circumstances, but this lesson speaks to the way we reject our lives

I was born in Germany raised in SA. Having been conceived after an illegitimate brother and an aborted brother as well as being unplanned, I felt mom's guilt, shame & "Oh NO" in the womb resulting in my feeling unwanted & "I shouldn't be here" from my earliest moments. The spirit of death had wrapped around me in the womb & I spent a lifetime struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts & social anxiety because of the many foundational lies that I had come to believ

During Elijah House A-School, Sandra had a vision of the Lord wanting to give a mantel of nobility. God had been speaking to me about my...

This digital painting is based on a dream from over 3 decades ago & was created digitally in Infinite Painter app on my Android tablet. In 1989 shortly after being born again I had a nightmare that would haunt me for decades. I dreamt I was standing on a rock & the earth was cracking open all around me. Homes would break & huge portions would fall down into the abyss, leaving a wave of destruction everywhere. As far as my eyes could see people were scattered & being separate

I attended Elijah House Prayer Ministries B-School last week. Everyday we attend lessons & then have a group session with ministry for 1 group member at the end of the day. On Thursday it was my turn... During my session my prayer minister asked the Lord to show me what He was doing... I heard the Lord say: "He's planting a tree & making all things new." He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its l

I've pulled through my hardest trigger season yet & am still standing because God added some awesome people to my life in the last few weeks. Being able to go to church in-person for the last 3 weeks, has also made a huge difference. There's a very good reason why Scripture teaches us not to neglect the gathering of the saints. We are so much stronger TOGETHER. There's joy in the house of the Lord. Today I celebrate 3 years walking in victory. A few weeks ago I seriously tho

This digital painting idea was birthed by this Word... https://www.facebook.com/611495648/videos/704713767090191/ 2 Corintihians 5:14-15 Jesus died for ALL people. Ephesians 3:17 Rooted & grounded in LOVE 1 John 4:18 Perfect LOVE casts out ALL fear. God's love is NOT exclusive. In the Gospel of Mark 3:25, Jesus states, "And if a house be divided against itself, that house cannot stand." That is in response to the scribes' claim that "by the prince of the devils casteth he

After messaging an intercessor friend over my massive heart-break with the church we called home, implementing CV passports & thus condoning exclusion, discrimination, apartheid & segregation, she set me up with a Healing rooms prayer meeting via zoom. The session started with each of the intercessors sharing a word of wisdom they had received during prayer before I entered the room. This was the 2nd intercessor's vision: I see a very old style CD Player, stuck in a groove,

I attended Elijah House Prayer Ministries B-School in January & received some more healing prayer ministry & God's miracle working healing in my life. This time the Lord dealt with the displacement trauma from more than 30 house moves in the first 20 years of my life, as well as rejection & abandonment trauma caused by previous church leadership having been triggered by the current vaccine passport implementation by the church we called home for the last 3 years which effecti

God has created us for community. When one struggles, others can help & keep them supported. Colossians 2:2 My goal is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ

A quick digital painting based on a vision received from a prayer partner on on of our Tuesday morning prayer meetings a couple of months ago. When life seems uphill & you're wondering how much further you can go, look back & see how far you've already come. Philippians 3:13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead

These are for our friends currently going through a storm. Galatians 6:2 Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. When we help others through their trials & struggles, we're effectively doing it unto Christ. Portraits Matthew 25:40 “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

"When your friend feels like she's walking on a narrow brick road under a huge ""Santam umbrella"" during the current turmoil... The Lord is our umbrella, we just need to stay close to Him to remain protected." Psalm 91:7-9 "7A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; But it shall not come nigh thee. 8Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold And see the reward of the wicked. 9Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, Even the most High, t

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.

Recently this word of wisdom, although intended as an encouragement, unleashed all power of darkness in a battle for my mind. All hell broke loose in my spirit followed by nightmares, angst & an intense spirit of heaviness on my chest. I felt really intimidated for days until I finally reached out for support. Thankfully, God has surrounded me with community who has my back & prays with me when I don't know how to pray for myself. Peeling off the layers is a slow & sometimes

I received this email from the lady who interceded whilst I was receiving prayer after intercessor training. ""I had an image come to me of a ‘cloud’ of cotton wool being wrapped around you, and felt the Lord was saying He is wrapping you in cotton wool. There is a saying that an ‘over-protective parent wraps their child in cotton wool’ and is often considered a negative thing, but in this case it was definitely a positive thing. Your Heavenly Father, like an over-protec