I got triggered into oblivion on Thursday night & have been struggling way more than I'd like to admit this week. For the first time however, I wasn't able to suppress my feelings & found myself in tears during the day as opposed to crying myself to sleep at night. I am aiming to get to the root of this annual November to January trigger season & praying for breakthrough that this will be the last year I will have to wage this war. The enemy has been served his eviction notic

I attended another Elijah House Trauma seminar this weekend. Once again I go to learn & be equipped to help others heal BUT instead God removed a few more layers of neglect, loss, betrayal, displacement, sexual abuse & generational trauma just to prove He was serious when I heard Him say: "Wait, there's more!" after D-School prayer ministry. And so we edge a few more steps forward towards the abundant life He has promised. The bad news is that processing hasn't happened as l

Here's a post I've been sitting on since I bought my first dress, the blue one, for my first worship team event in August... I received this word from Sandra during prayer ministry on 4/6/2020... "Be still & know I am here. INVEST: The Lord wants you to invest in you personally. You're not a waste of time, money & effort. What would that look like? • Take time to discover what fills your creative well • New haircut? • New dress? • Take the time & money you need for qualif

This week we celebrated our 30th wedding anniversary. Please bear with me. I wanted to keep this short, but today's the culmination of a decades-long wrestle with God & myself. When the thought of renewing our vows for our 25th anniversary crossed my mind, I shrugged it off as a totally crazy idea because I was in shambles & suicidal back then. However, the Lord uses all things for good & in His great mercy, had allowed my structures to be overwhelmed so He could set me on m

I didn't get to spend any painting time in my studio last week due to preparations for tomorrow night's anniversary celebration & vow renewals. These pours were done last weekend. Flip cup pour on 10cm natural look coasters Colours used: Atelier A2 Lightfast Titanium White Atelier A2 Lightfast Pthalo Blue Atelier A2 Lightfast Cadmium Red Reeves Copper Metallic Blue Atelier A2 Lightfast Cobalt Blue Metallic Red Atelier A2 Lightfast Ultramarine Blue Flip cup pours on 10cm natu

It's taken a few weeks to get the last few things sorted but studio is finally completely finished. We're still missing some signage but here's what you'll find when you come visit me in my studio. The door to the left is a storage closet that has been fixed & can now be used & to the far left is our house entrance. When she renovated, the landlady insisted the studio also needed inside access to the house so visitors could comfortably use the bathroom so they broke through t

I guess it's safe to say I have a very happy customer... Peter came up to me after the service last month in which I shared my testimony & announced the start of our Healing heARTs ministry at MBCC with a challenge to do a painting on the Wings of Prayer. He had seen my exhibition in the front of the church & loved what I did with my paintings & wanted his favourite Scripture painted. This is a Scripture I've wanted to create for years but had shied away from for fear of fai

Well, my studio is almost finished. I still need to sort out the walk-in storage cupboard, but thanks to Lai's brilliant thinking, that mess remains hidden behind the doors for now... The exhibition hanging system has also arrived this week & I just need to get a rail to hang it so I can get an exhibition onto the big wall. Who knows, maybe I'll be able to sell some paintings when I have people in the studio for paint parties. Then there's still the blind for the window that

Now we can host paint parties & exhibitions right here in my studio... I just need to add an exhibition hanging system to the exhibition wall... Let the healing heARTs begin...

I started D-School in July 2022 thinking it would be a breeze because I'd dealt with all the issues on the index, until we got to the lesson on SPIRITUAL REBELLION. I learnt every person is deeply in spiritual rebellion & in need of being reconciled with Him. 3The foolishness of a person ruins his way, And his heart rages against the Lord. Proverbs 19:3 It's not sin to desire relief from painful or difficult circumstances, but this lesson speaks to the way we reject our lives

This weekend Jesse came along to help us do the last few touches to the studio. Now I just need to paint the additions...

I was born in Germany raised in SA. Having been conceived after an illegitimate brother and an aborted brother as well as being unplanned, I felt mom's guilt, shame & "Oh NO" in the womb resulting in my feeling unwanted & "I shouldn't be here" from my earliest moments. The spirit of death had wrapped around me in the womb & I spent a lifetime struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts & social anxiety because of the many foundational lies that I had come to believ

This digital painting is based on a dream from over 3 decades ago & was created digitally in Infinite Painter app on my Android tablet. In 1989 shortly after being born again I had a nightmare that would haunt me for decades. I dreamt I was standing on a rock & the earth was cracking open all around me. Homes would break & huge portions would fall down into the abyss, leaving a wave of destruction everywhere. As far as my eyes could see people were scattered & being separate

I attended Elijah House Prayer Ministries B-School last week. Everyday we attend lessons & then have a group session with ministry for 1 group member at the end of the day. On Thursday it was my turn... During my session my prayer minister asked the Lord to show me what He was doing... I heard the Lord say: "He's planting a tree & making all things new." He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its l

I've pulled through my hardest trigger season yet & am still standing because God added some awesome people to my life in the last few weeks. Being able to go to church in-person for the last 3 weeks, has also made a huge difference. There's a very good reason why Scripture teaches us not to neglect the gathering of the saints. We are so much stronger TOGETHER. There's joy in the house of the Lord. Today I celebrate 3 years walking in victory. A few weeks ago I seriously tho

This digital painting idea was birthed by this Word... https://www.facebook.com/611495648/videos/704713767090191/ 2 Corintihians 5:14-15 Jesus died for ALL people. Ephesians 3:17 Rooted & grounded in LOVE 1 John 4:18 Perfect LOVE casts out ALL fear. God's love is NOT exclusive. In the Gospel of Mark 3:25, Jesus states, "And if a house be divided against itself, that house cannot stand." That is in response to the scribes' claim that "by the prince of the devils casteth he

After messaging an intercessor friend over my massive heart-break with the church we called home, implementing CV passports & thus condoning exclusion, discrimination, apartheid & segregation, she set me up with a Healing rooms prayer meeting via zoom. The session started with each of the intercessors sharing a word of wisdom they had received during prayer before I entered the room. This was the 2nd intercessor's vision: I see a very old style CD Player, stuck in a groove,

I attended Elijah House Prayer Ministries B-School in January & received some more healing prayer ministry & God's miracle working healing in my life. This time the Lord dealt with the displacement trauma from more than 30 house moves in the first 20 years of my life, as well as rejection & abandonment trauma caused by previous church leadership having been triggered by the current vaccine passport implementation by the church we called home for the last 3 years which effecti